Monday, September 26, 2005
dad always says Medicine is a subject like no other subject in the way it shapes a person. It changes a person. and i can really see that around the people now. apart from the usual positive things u'd expect to hear. becoming more diligent, caring, hardworking, calm and all that, i'm seeing how people are getting drained off.
there're a lot of youthful characters when i got in, a number of people that would do crazy things. i miss that. a number of people that would go hyper all the time, i miss that too. EAS kisos, just form6.5'ers when they came in, now the whole course puts everyone on the same level. it's not about the books they read the things in their brain, it's not about tying up the hair properly and changing the glasses, it's about the whole experience that forces them to grow up too fast, too early.
medicine is a tough courses, i bombards you everyday and challanges your priorities. it alters what people want and how people would achieve what they want.
i think i'm still in the process of stationary, i don't see that kind of student life that i look forward to. where is this heading, UG and then 5 more blocks and then an exam then ssm then a super short summer and school starts in mid aug? that's it? that's my student life?
in a way i want ot graduate as soon as possible, in another way i don't want to go through what i'm about to grow through. i know i'm going to have to give up a lot of things, sleep being the first thing that comes to my mind, and the diversity of extracurricular activities. i really think it is what's outside ur MBBS that counts that makes you a real person. i want to be able to go on with my journalist work, i wanna run around and interview people, i still wanna do my market analysis, i still wanna release my source intel, i still wanna sell chicken once at KFC i still wanna work at broadway, i still wanna work for sony. and the list is not exhaustive. amsa, i think i'm learning a lot. it might look triviel, useless and painless activities, but i learnt to bargain, sell, negotiate, appeal to egos, challange pressurise and appear vulnerable, some real admin and politics. for example if u ask me to set up a show now, i'll know how to do it. if u ask me to PR for a product oh yes i can do it. if u ask me to take care of 20 people from somewhere on earth to hk for an academic tour yes i can do it. these are the things i learnt in amsa, things that i cannot learn sitting at home or drilling at stjohn's or playing a piano.
so it's MB2 now, a good warning for me to make good use of my time before it's too late. i'm gonna be dealing with ASEAN this year (a lot bigger), IFMSA (a lot bigger) and AMSC06 (a lot bigger show than just a concert). i still got a lot to learn.