Wednesday, March 30, 2005
i'm actually sitting outside stjohns abusing the free WLAN here when im typing this on this lil uncomfortable chair that is hurting my gluts' here the traffic passing by, headlights gliding over the dark, wet road leaving a beam of light the flickers on your face it's not particularly warm in here and it's far from being cozy but i just like the idea of sitting just outside st john's people behind me having "hallsnack" whatever, drilling into the 3min glory of defeating weilun in softball this afternoon. big deal.
it's been a long day, late for lecture for half an hr (that's an avg now) i really cant find the motivation nor the reason to be on time any more to tell you the truth i value my sleep more than gambling for 30min of regret or critical appraisal or delight (if that happens everyday) the lecture was followed by an amsa amsc interview, with me being the interviewer today seeing a blend of people in our class (and m08), quite funny when u realize how picky interviewers can be, and how the interviewees can all take the wrong signal so i stayed there until 3, had pizza lunch which was nice
went to library to get online, reply a coupla emails, to prepare for PBL tmr went thru nettar on peritoneum, things starting to make sense now, how the peritoneam is NOT a piece of membrane that i always thot it was for the last 20 yrs but a messed up saggy balloon with nasty fat and connective tissues, aponeurosis and vasculature wrapping around it how it flips and turns, squeezes and sticks to walls and organs man. that was crazy.
went to the bank, fixed a coupla timed deposits, closed a coupla redundant account
went back to sjc, py came up for dinner, so he got to meet lankwun at the same time internet in my room is still nto resumed for some reason, which is really really frustrating cuz some of the ppt/pdf online for lectures are not copiable/savable (im making up new words here) then i went back to the books, found a great site on peritoneum (how lovely) and finished my prepping fo pbl tmr by the time i finished, it's 12
it is until 12 when i feel that i have more control of my life it is until 12 that i can start to do stupid stuff for myself it is until 12 til i can finally breathe for myself even sitting outside sjc stealing WLAN access
trapped in the maze of time..8:26 AM